Thoughts

10.25.2020

Maaaring sa pagsusulat malalaman mo ang tunay na saloobin ng puso. Hindi mo man masabi pasalita, pero ang puso na ang gumagawa ng paraan upang kahit papaano ay maibsan ang nararamdaman.

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Sobrang mahirap mabuhay sa mundong puno ng lungkot. Lungkot na nakakubli at nagtatago sa pilit na mga ngiti.

Gustong humiyaw ngunit papaano? Kanino hihingi ng saklolo? Sino ang gustong maglaan ng kahit na katiting na oras?

Nakakapagod. Nakakasakal. Nakakasawa.

Paulit-ulit na aking nararamdaman, kailan ba mawawakasan? Tila isang bangungot na bumabagabag sa tuwing ako’y mag-isa na lamang. Hindi alam ang gagawin.

Papaano na nga ba?

Sa tuwing gugustuhin kong sabihin ang nararamdaman, tila ito’y nagiging isang ipu-ipo na naghalo-halo sa isipan at damdamin. Hindi alam kung paano uumpisahan.

Sasabihin ba sa iba o sasarilinin na lamang?

Hindi masabi kasi natatakot na mahusgahan at natatakot din na hindi maintindihan.

Magulo. Nakakabahala.

Sabi nila, “Isipin mo lang daw ang mga magagandang bagay at magiging masaya ka na.”


Pero tila nga yata mapaglaro ang tadhana. Sa tuwing gugustuhin kong sumaya, hindi ko parin mapigilan ang makaramdam ng lungkot. Para akong hinihila pabalik. Hindi makausad.

Paano na?

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Note: It’s NOT my intention to spread negativity or depression thing. I wrote this to spread ‘awareness’ that, just because you understand people, doesn’t mean you really understand what they feel and what they’re going through. Sometimes, they are some people who are not really afraid to talk about they’re problems, they are more like afraid to be misunderstood.

But still, thank you for the people who really cares for the people who really are suffering and struggling. Salute to those who don’t give up on them! 🙂

#MentalHealthAwareness

BATANGAS STAYCATION!!!! (away from stressful life as a student)

@Aquaria Waterpark Beach Resort, Calatagan, Batangas

4 days, 3 nights ~~

It was right on time when it is our school’s Intramurals hehe absent na naman ako, ’tis okay lang 😀 Atleast I AM BREAKING FREE !!!

Sa totoo lang, nasstress talaga ako e. Timing naman na may pupuntahan kami kaya soooobrang sulit talaga namin. Hahaha!

So, let me show you some pictures . . .

Eto, actually huling kuha namin ‘to pauwi na kami. Dinaanan lang talaga namin ‘to para namin may signage ng name ng place kung saan kami pumunta diba? Haha.

Ang itiiiiiiiim ko dito!!! Yuck 🙀

Bundok ‘teh?!

Akala mo naman ang taas ng inakyat eh. Haha!

“W-wait pa’no bumaba?!” Haha

Eto talaga ‘yung seryosohan na photoshoot . .

Kunwari stolen pero hirap na hirap na ‘yan sa pwesto ‘nya. Nyahahaha

Eto naman, ‘yung view talaga ng kalangitan ang nagustuhan ko eh 🙈💙

Dako naman tayo sa swing hehe . .

I will miss you !!!!!!

See you next time 😀

Happy (belated) bday, Ate Sha!

As I promised . . .

I know it’s been late na but I would still make you my MOST TOUCHING & HEARTWARMING message. jk. Hahahaha. Ayun sana hindi kita mapaiyak kasi baka umiyak din si baby sayo, yari ako sa hubby mo. Haha.

First of all, I wanna greet you a . . .

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!

🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

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Ayyyiiieeeee

Congrats!

Wishes for you . . .

Alam kong excited ka na maging wife & mommy, basta lagi mo lang tatandaan na you still have a friend na pwede mong makausap kapag down na down ka na sa life, you still have a friend na pwede kang mabigyan ng payo or pwede kang samahan magpray.

Sana kapag mommy & wife ka na ay ‘wag mong kakalimutan pa rin si Jesus na iyong Panginoon, Tagapagligtas at ang iyong Buhay. Siya dapat ang source of strength mo and Siya pa rin dapat ang maging center ng buhay mo. Always be grateful on what you have (I know you are) and kung ano man ang pagdaanan nyong dalawang mag-asawa ilapit nyo parin parehas sa Lord. Always have a devotion, not only prayer.

Enjoy every minute of the day na nasa tummy pa si baby kasi kapag lumabas na ‘yan, mamimiss mo rin ‘yan. Haha. Give it with full of love. Don’t be stressed out. 😉

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I was totally surprised nung sinabi mong buntis ka na at mas lalo pa nung sabi mong ikakasal ka na. HAHAHA. Hindi ko pa nga namimeet yung bf mo tapos ayan. HAHAHA. Pero hindi naman ako galit, nagulat lang ako. Hahaha.

Alam kong matagal mo nang inaantay ‘yung makasal ka sa taong magmamahal sayo ng higit pa sa pagmamahal mo. You deserved it!

Wala na akong maisip na sasabihin kundi BEST WISHES !!!! HAHA.

Ayun, alam kong magiging best mommy in town ka, lahat ng natutunan mo sa bahay ni ate Rae iapply mo. Hahaha!

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I wanna share some verses for you . . .

“Give thanks to the Lord , for He is good. His love endures forever.

Give thanks to the God of gods. His love endures forever.

Give thanks to the Lord of Lords: His love endures forever.

To Him who alone does great wonders, His love endures forever.

Who by His understanding made the heavens, His love endures forever.

Who spread out the earth upon the waters, His love endures forever.

Who made the great lights— His love endures forever.

the sun to govern the day, His love endures forever.

the moon and stars to govern the night; His love endures forever.”

(Psalm 136:1‭-‬9 NIV)

Always remember that 🙂

“True friends may be apart but the memory of friendships stays.”

True Vine Pips!

(08/25/19)

Ginaya ang buntis 😀

Finally after years (actually months lang talaga haha) hindi nagkita, madaming ganap: yung sa left (engaged), middle (preggy) at ako (single/working student) Hahaha. Wala lang na-miss lang namin isa’t-isa. Haha.

Kaya ‘ayan selfie. HAHAHA!

At ‘syempre SUPER BLESSED dahil kasama namin si Papa 🙂

Blessed 26th, True Vine CRC!

“All Grace!”

Sermon Text:

Titus 2:11-14

In the 26 years of The True Vine CRC , what would be our perspectives: good and bad?

Points to Remember:

We are not celebrating for ourselves but for celebrating God’s grace and faithfulness in our lives.

-Titus was ministering in Crete. (1:12)

-Grace and power of God- there was a church in Crete!

-Paul challenged Titus to continue the work. (Right attitudes, right mind and good works)

-Titus needed to hear God’s grace.
-We are sinners now, we are the church.

-Mahirap maging Kristiyano, dahil marami tayong makakabanggang tao.

-Sometimes we feel like Titus. We also need to hear about God’s grace.

Dito sa Titus 2:11-14, mayroong tatlong reminders sa atin about God’s grace and encouragement to us.

1. GOD IN GRACE SAVED US (vv.11,13,24)

-Eph. 2:1-2,4-5

-Ikaw at ang simbahan ay belong to God. We are the people of God because of grace.

-Anytime you doubt who you are , you want to give up,… remember the Grace of God.

2. GOD IN GRACE SANCTIFIES (vv.11-12)

-Sanctify means to make holy, set apart as sacred, process of making holy

-Grace of God is training us.

a. TRAINING US TO SAY “NO” TO UNGODLINESS

b. TRAINING US TO LIVED FOR GOD

-itong sanctification na ito ay dahil sa Diyos na Siyang humuhubog sa atin.

-Through the Word of God, other Christians, example of others and all of these through the direct work of the Holy Spirit in us

-God is working, training and teaching His people.

-(v.14; zealous for good works) Ito ang gustong makita ng Lord sa atin.

-After 26 years, how have we changed? Are we zealous for good works?

– (1 Cor. 3:)

“we plant, we water, but it is God who makes us grow.”

3. GOD IN GRACE SUSTAINS US (v.13)

-This is blessed hope while we’re waiting for Jesus’ second coming. God will sustain.

-Phil. 1:6

-As a Christian Reformed, we celebrate the doctrine of perseverance.

-In 26 years, there are ups and downs, good and bad yet we are not perfect but it will make us complete until the return of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Rev. Ruben Orteza, Jr.

TTVCRC

08/25/19

MY BUCKETLIST 2019!!!!

Siguro normal lang naman ang gumawa nang mga ganitong bagay, diba? Wala naman sigurong mawawala kung susubukan kong gawin ang mga bagay na hindi ko pa nattry nung mga nakaraang taon.

Actually, gusto ko ulit subukan gumawa nito dahil narin sa natupad ang isa sa mga bucketlist ko nung nakaraang taon! Hihi. “Pumunta ng UP w/ a friend”. Sobrang unexpected nun. Nakakatuwa kasi yung pangarap mo lang ulit makabalik sa place na ‘yun tapos hindi mo alam na matutupad yun. Amazing, diba? Kaya I’ve decided na gumawa ulit baka sakaling may matupad. Haha.

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“MY BUCKET LIST 2019”

#1 Family picnic

#2 Girls Fellowship

#3 Matapos ang 2016 project ng girls youth

#4 Save. Save. Save Money

#5 Makapag-ojt this first trime sa Cbn Asia/CNN/GMA/101.9/ENERGY FM RADIO

#6 Maka-graduate this december

#7 Mabigyan ako ng gift

#8 Matupad yung bday wish ko

#9 Spiritual Growth

#10 Mapasaya Family esp. Parents ko

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Wala na akong maisip. Haha. Pang ngayong taon lang naman yung iba eh haha. Hopefully and by God’s will matupad ang lahat ng mga ito 🙂

Hindi ko na ginawang 100 baka hindi ko na kayanin yung iba. Hahaha.

#2019Bucketlist

Welcoming a new year!

01. 01. 19

I know how fast years passed and now we’re celebrating another year again with gladness and hope that this year will bring good to us.

Bakit kaya ganoon noh? Everytime we’re welcoming a new year, palagi nating sinasabi na “..please be good to me.” Medyo clìche na rin at nagiging normal na rin pakinggan sa tuwing sasapit ang bagong taon. But you know what, aminin man natin na naging maganda at mabuti naman talaga ang mga nangyari sa buong taon natin, diba? Though we experienced the ups and downs of life, so many struggles, problems, failures, obstacles and many hardships that lead us to depression and anxieties that killing us so bad. But then, we fought and stand against it because we know and strongly believed that everything will be alright.

‘God is with us’ ika ‘nga.

God is always been faithful. He loves us so much more. He is always been us the whole year! Sa lahat ng pagsubok na naranasan natin noong nakaraang taon, kasama natin Siya. Nalulungkot din Siya kapag nakikita Niya tayong nanghihina, nahihirapan at napapagod but we will always have an assurance na God will lifted us and be back with Him again. Hindi naman tayo bibigyan ng Lord ng mga pagsubok if hindi natin kaya, diba? So, what’s with giving up? Kaya kung ikaw ay malungkot, just pray. Nanghihina, just pray. Depressed, just pray. Because God is always listen for those who will come to Him. 🙂

I know, kahit ako ay nahirapan din. Na-depressed. Nanghina. Pero everytime na maggigive-up ako, God always reminds me na “Anak, lumapit ka sakin at makikinig ako”, “Anak, I am always be with you”, “Mahal kita” at marami pang nakakagaan na mga salitang tagos hanggang buto. Sobrang thankful talaga ko sa Lord kasi kahit na palagi kong naiisip na failure ako, hindi mag iiba yung tingin at pagkakakilala Niya sa akin. Through my friends and lahat ng tao sa paligid ko ay pinapaalala sa akin na sila ang instrumentong ginagamit ng Lord para tulungan ako at makita ko kung gaano ako ka-blessed at worthy na tao! Sa lahat ng dalangin ko, hindi naman Niya ako binibigo eh. Kaya, sorry Lord for all of my mistakes and wrongdoings.

Random feelings and emotions ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. 🙂

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Sa sobrang dami ng nangyari sa 2018, ang naaalala ko nalang na sobrang thankful ako sa mga thesismates (Beshies) ko at nairaos namin ‘yun ng maayos at mga 3rd yr classmates ko at ka-group sa magazine (Guys! Sorry and happy ako kasi madami akong natutunan sa mag), sa mga friends and family ko na walang sawang sumusuporta at nagmamahal sakin at sa mga taong tumutulong sakin sa pag-aaral. Maraming maraming salamat po sa inyo sa pagiging part ng buhay ko!!! ❤❤❤

Happy New Year 🙂

Be joyful, grateful, faithful, patient, compassionate and humble in the coming year.

God bless!

#RandomThoughts2019 #HappyNewYear #1stBlogOf2019

Banquet Night #Glow 🌟

02.18.18

1 John 4:7-12

This was the first ever Banquet Night held at The True Vine CRC. Super glamorous and we felt very special like a real princesses and real prince in fairytales.

We glow in the eyes of God 🙂

Ms. Banquet Queen 👑❤

With my ever supported and pretty bestfriend, Allyssa. Ngayon nalang ulit nagkasama. Haha.

We thank God for the opportunity. Thank you for having this. Looking forward for more! Haha. Salamat po ng marami.

Hello 22! + Wishes :) 

January 18!!! ❤❤❤

One of the most exciting part of the year is about celebrating our birthdays. And now on this day, I will celebrate my 22nd birthday!!! Yesterday, super naappreciate ko po lahat ng nag super advance greetings for me!!!!!! ❤❤❤ Grabe I feel really blessed!!! Salamat po sa inyooo !!!! 
First, let me share this God’s wonderful, awesome and priceless gift I have ever received today! Yiiieee I’m super happy and my heart feels contented. 🙂 
(1 Peter 2:19‭-‬25 NIV)

“For it is commendable if someone bears up under the pain of unjust suffering because they are conscious of God. 

But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God. 

To this you were CALLED, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an EXAMPLE, that you should FOLLOW in His STEPS.  

“He committed NO SIN, and NO DECEIT was found in His mouth.”  

When they hurled their insults at Him, He did not retaliate; when He suffered, He made no threats. Instead, He entrusted Himself to Him who judges justly. 

“He Himself bore our sins” in His body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by His wounds you have been HEALED.” 

For “you were like sheep going astray,” but now you have RETURNED to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls.

Alam niyo bang last christmas, I asked God on how I will come back to be inlove with Him again? To have a fire worshipping and glorifying Him with all my heart. And on this month, before my day I keep on praying to God that I want to be satisfied on Him again, to be back in His calling again. And now, as in today (naiiyak na ako ngayon sa tuwa) His message answered my prayer!!!! Awesome right? Wala nakong mahihiling pa. Kuntento na ako. Sobrang THANKFUL & GRATEFUL ako today and always be thankful all the days in my life. Thank You Lord for being with me!!!!!! Nakaka touch Lord! ❤❤❤ Iba pag Kayo po ang magmahal!!!!! SALAMAT LORD FOR THIS AWESOME GIFT I have ever received! 
MVOTD: 

“My comfort in my suffering is this: Your PROMISE preserves my life.”

(Psalm 119:50)



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Wishlists:

1. Spiritual healing- answered prayer ✔

2. Continue to be grateful throughout the year

3. Do what my passion is (drawing/sketching, photography, ..)

4. Blessed the people around me

5. Appreciate them.